bouts time i said something.
I was at Target today. I saw bathing suits. I am not eating until summer…
Okay, fine. ill still eat but im all done with the candy, to be more specific. Gummy bears and those giant sweet tarts. And diet pepsi. I have been occasionally enjoying one every now and then but not anymore. I cant say that i have been eating badly, but i cant say that i have been eating like i used to. That is about to stop. now.
more water, no more sugar (candy), no more carbonated beverages (diet pepsi), no more white foods, no more dairy (only skim milk and fat free cheese), no more eating after 8pm, and back to the gym.
I have court tomorrow. and this might be the last court date i have, but i think i still might have one more after this. Im not sure, guess that is why i pay a lawyer to tell me these things. Basically, as i understand it. Im going to be entering a guilty plea in hope of a light sentence. No jail time and minimum probation. But i guess because i blew so high and and it was considered an “accident” we really cant make an offer for a lesser charge. I pray to god that everything works out. Im trying to stay positive about this entire thing but its hard. Im scared, and nervous and i just wish it would all go away. I bet if i had a million dollars i could make it all go away. i hate money.
Tomorrow at 7am i also will be registering for a full time semester of school in the summer. 12 credits. but the way i look at it is im going to need to keep myself out of trouble for the summer if im going to be on probation. esp if its the kinda probation where you have to take breathalyzers when they call your color or number or whatever and however that works. the only thing that could go wrong with that is my grants wont transfer in time for the summer semester, which could happen, but then ill juts go the next semester. either way im going back to school. Because im cool.
Im really happy with the relationship i have. I love you. thank you for putting up with me while i deal with this fucking mess i call my life at the moment. it will get easier. <3
